Hello peepz! im basically here just to rant about cheer. =/ after my 2 years in cheer life, it made me realise what is internal competition and what is external competition. the feel was so significant during my 1st year in cheerleading. when larry kicked me out of the nats team cos I didnt go for only one training. and the very sentence he said still carve in my head. no one is indispensible in this team. its true that a 12 man team can be sent or just a group category team. cos if you know if your 16 man team's not gonna make it why should be go out and disgrace ourselves? when people are improving yet we are deproving. I wouldnt say I have been improving alot or very good in cheerleading already cos I still learning stuffs. even from the juniors themselves. their mistakes remind me not to commit them myself and remind the juniors not to make it a habit. and I still remember one sentence idk from where. if you think this advice is useful, take it. else just leave it. to me, every advice is useful. no matter how big or small of a difference they'll make. cos every advice is a chance to improve. a chance to excel. I really regretted not training alot more to attain my goals. and sometimes I even felt complacent. though what I achieve isnt much. so I hope the juniors would not leave this team by feeling that they have not done enough. cos with this very reason I can easily say that I have failed my team and nevertheless myself. what for regret when you could work much harder than in the past? regrets are too late already. never will I lose hope in the very first team I ever joined. never will I lose hope in the stunts that were assigned to me. never will I lose hope in the teammates who cheered for me when im down. never will I lose hope in the coach that believe that we all can do it for nationals. never will I lose hope in TP Blazers! so much for ranting.